Our New Lockdown

It's been over 6 months since we finished our severe lockdown and we are heading into it once again.  

Our personal lifestyle doesn't change much.  We are so super COVID aware it's on the brink of crazy.

But I'm a little pissed off with having to get my head back into my 1km from home route with running.  It's tough mentally.  

There's a lot of stress that we carry with COVID that we don't share but it's there.  

So, once again.  Within the boundary of 1km runs.  Up and down the hills (I do keep my fitness up with my cap down.) 

And, I feel like I am a bit of a criminal when the occasional car passes.  It's back to that feeling.  Damn.  

FFS France.  Couldn't we have just tried a bit harder after the first lockdown?  What's with the sudden openening of all restaurants and bars?  Why do we still have to pay on the autoroutes? Pressing all those buttons and coins and credit cards, car after car.  What's with the supermarket trolleys? We still have to shove the 1euro coin in there.  AND WTFF (what the flying F) is with the general blood clinic being the testing place with no self distancing and there is only one in our region???????? Even when you just need a routine blood test you line up with COVID peeps.  FFS.  

Grrrrrrr

Anyway.  Heading out, once again tomorrow for my fucking 1 hour COVID 1 km run while the French Govt are really not doing enough to crack this thing on the head.  

Covid

 It's a disaster for the world.  Right now, in France, 10% of the population have been infected and it's escalating.  Every day even though we are mandated to wear masks.

I was in the supermarket yesterday and a woman was coughing.  I was near her in fruit and veg when I heard her coughing, then FFS she was there when I was next her to the Dijon mustard isle and she was fucking coughing.  And just to lay the whole disaster to rest, I was caught behind her (no kidding) in the checkout isle.  

OK, yes she was wearing a mask.  But she was coughing into the air.  Not using her elbow, just coughing into her mask like it was all good.  And she looked unclean (of course).

I had a bit of a panic attack when I got home.  I simply lost it.  I really did and that's not me.  I do the best I can do to keep us safe and then there's this unaware person just doing their own thing.  WTF?  

So it had me thinking about the US (more than I usually do because the situation there is forefront in my mind).  I think about the politics and the flagrancy of F. Trump.  I get pissed off.  I watch CNN.  I watch Trevor Noah etc....

But yesterday it reminded me (I know this woman lives in France not the US of A) that unaware people need true and utter guidance. 

Here, at least the Govt are doing their best, to keep the economy afloat whilst mandating the wearing of masks and social distancing.  In the US,  it is one fucked up situation.   I feel fucked off with Trump.  I can't speak for what's going on in India.  I've no clue at all and the sad thing is nor do they.  But for us, right now we have a complete inept president "of the free world" (hate that term) who's not fit for purpose.  We have a virus completely out of control, doing our heads and our bank statements in and a "president".... leaving it there.  

My sourdough

 It's never perfect.  But it's a fascinating journey.